I remember faintest rays of light
I shut them out of my sight
Isolated so afraid to face
Feelings I've shut up inside
Don't look inside
I am a wretched and vile thing
Prison of flesh has corrupted me
Venomous snake without immunity
To it's own fangs in it's hypocrisy
Raging in fear lashing out blindly
Crying in lust, rotting with gluttony
Trapped in a mirror out of touch with reality
I'm yearning for a warmth
When my own heart's so cold
Do I even fucking care
About a soul but myself?
And my guilty conscience
Implanting endless doubts
Such bold convictions
So little steel
So go then little leaden automaton
In search of someone to make you feel
Crushed
By the weight of a mind
Bound
to my substance defined
Endless
Never the voice satisfied
Ravenous
Leave no sleeping dragons to lie
Deep down inside a longing brewing
For one to stay my wanton bleeding
Save me it cries in childish wailing
My desire, a parasite, its tide is rising
Hatred, my internal projection
Revulsion, my gaze's only expectation
Fear, is at best what they're feeling
Desolation, when I'm through with my self-concealing
I know alone I'm better staying
Can't find a home with heart dismaying
Try to justify with outward giving
Paralyzed from all sides I'm kept from living
But I know somewhere deep down inside
There's one thing I can do right
Change myself as much as I need to
To be a person who can love true
So burn this image into your mind
Placeholder for the one you will find
With it remember to keep your every word
A promise to remake yourself, and remake the world
This is the undying flame for your effigy
I pray my epitaph reads your name
Hope in this life what I know in eternity
The light within me leads the way
Find solace
In knowing I have worth
As someone
Who cares for others
As someone
With a heart that can feel
With a will turned to steel
So crush me under the wheel
Now I see the purpose of my past
Filling me, with passion that was built to last
Stars above, law within, hope before me
On this earth I'm not alone
But there is so much to be done
There is still so much to be done
So I will fight on endlessly
In the name of
Your effigy
A blackened doom concept record about the very real problem of amphibian extinction, “Croak” is a punishing, essential listen. Bandcamp New & Notable Apr 23, 2022
